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I miss ‘The Stage’

Is there anything that you miss? What have you being doing all your life and for some reason are not able to do it now? What do you want to do but due to your busy schedule or prior commitments you are not able to do?  Is there anything that you miss? Something you want the most?  Someone, something, some place, some moment, some memory that you miss the most?  I have one such thing that I miss the most.  One such thing that I have been doing all my life and have suddenly come to a halt!

Dance.

It happened on this weekend, when I went to my guru’s dance concert. Being excited in the beginning,the feeling of guilt and sadness took over me when I left the concert hall. It was not because the concert was bad, it was excellent indeed. Something every Kathak dancer and a classical dancer should experience at least once in his/her lifetime.

Kathak is an Indian classical dance form originally from Uttar Pradesh(a state in northern India). I have been learning the same for the last 15 years of my life. It has become something that a single word cannot define. From being just a hobby in the beginning it became my passion. Dance was something I did whenever I felt happy, or sad. Wherever I felt I need to vent myself, I danced. I am learning  the Kathak dance from a renowned Kathak dancer herself and a choreographer in the movie industry as well. 

From being a hobby to passion. Now the journey led from once dancing all the time to not dancing anymore. A very sad journey on my part. For someone who has been dancing all her life, a year without dance is heart breaking and unimaginable. But it happened. I was busy in my academics, beginnings of shaping my career, confused about making the right choices. In the race of the life,all the serious things seemed to be winning and the happiness seemed to be loosing. 

At the end of the concert I had an urge to cry. I felt like I have lost a piece of my personality somewhere in the midst of everything and unable to find it. The medium of expression through dance was something I always mastered in. “Even if I made a mistake somewhere,it reflected on my face immediately “,says my dance teacher who has been training me for the last 10 years.

I went to greet my teacher and she immediately read my face. The tears in my eyes spoke before I could speak anything.

I not only miss the dancing. I miss presenting it on stage. The clothes, the make up,the lights, the smile and most importantly my ghungroos(small copper bells tied in a string). With every step attracting, everyone’s attention, was what I enjoyed the most and miss the most.

The concert was based on the idea “Sringar to Bhakti” meaning ” From Beauty to Devotion ”

It gave me a happy realization of the beauty that the Kathhak dance possess to the devotion you need to excel that dance form.

That devotion which was long lost somewhere, I found it again that day. I decided no matter what, as I am working hard to get an engineering degree, I would work harder to get a degree in dance as well.

I believe,

 Nothing should be left un-done in anyones life.

Everything you have been doing and will do in the future has a purpose. That purpose can be anything from money and success to passion and happiness.  It’s just important to carry on what you are doing and the purpose will be served.

I missed dancing badly.And today I make a promise to myself,whatever happens I won’t give up on dance.Never.

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Everyday Inspiration Day#3

A lot of times in our life there comes a time where we don’t know what to do.Where to go.What to expect and accept.We don’t know what life brings for us the next day or what life has planned for us for the current day. It’s all uncertain and sometimes scary

As a part the #everydayinsipiration I was supposed to write a blog on the image featured. I could just see a girl standing in the woods or about to enter the forest,but is scared.Or thoughtful.Or calculative.

Life is just like the woods.Productive but unpredictable.Beautiful but dangerous. Adventurous with lot of risks.Planned but never perfect. Dense but alone. We all have a life with positives and negatives in it. Each tree has hundreds of trees surrounding it. But it has to bear the fruit itself. It has to support the nest of the birds dwelling on it itself.It has to face the rains,the winds,and the sun.And still stand strong. So do we humans.

Walk around the woods fearless.Because for those who fear there are people to scare you.Once you overcome the fear,people overcome the urge to scare you.

Walk around the woods as the road is unending,the possibilities endless and keep the strength in us unnerving.

 

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Holidays turn fictional

Heya people.

I am an engineering student and having a big nice holiday is a big deal for me. I am sure for every engineering student,it’s the same. Engineering is not an easy task and it needs a lot of time,effort,confidence and patience to achieve a determined goal. A six month semester is too hectic for every student and who wouldn’t want a nice holiday to laze around. And like others I wanted too and I got one. 

On the last day of our examinations, we were informed that our classes would commence alomst after a month. ALMOST A MONTH OF HOLDAY! I could not be anything but less then excited. I was all smiles that day and all enthusiastic as soon as I was out of the college. I made a mental list of all the possible things I could do this vacation and have fun and be productive as well. So many exciting thoughts dwelled my mind! First and foremost was to eat right, stay healthy and fit. Another was to spend the holiday travelling with my friends. Go on a road trip, catch up with old mates, visit my relatives, some DIY stuff, blogging was also on the list.(Which I can say is successfully done) and lots of other stuff. And I planned on starting at all of that the very next day.

But as the lazy bum I am, my next day started right after the noon. In the excitement of not getting up early altogether, I had slept half of the day and now planned to spend the rest as well.

DAY 1:Wasted! Or Rested?

The very next day was comparitively a prductive day as I met my friends and spent some time with them. It was fun to be around your allies after a long long time and sharing our experiences. In the coming week I found myself planning for a one day picnic near by, and be a part of the plans by my other friends as well.In every group there’s always a nay-sayer,either he is unavailable, doesn’t like the place decided, many reasons to say a no. Everyone throws tantrums once in a while and we wasted out time in handling each other’s tantrums.(I was one to throw the tantrums as well).And to everyone’s disappointment no plan came in action and all we did was to jibber-jabber about it on our phones.

Week 1:Wasted! Or overwasted?

Later, after 10 days or so of the holiday I found myself getting up late in the mornings and spending my afternoons in napping and my nights in watcing the missed episodes of Greys anatomy , Castle, Masterchef and stuff like that. Even the Saas Bahu non sense on Tv. Whatever happed to getting up early and exercising and staying fit?
The rest of the time in between the naps was spent in chatting on whtasapp and socialising. Wait! Socialising on social media. Whatever happened to the road trips and the picnics to be planned with the same  people on the other side of the chat window?

Week 2:Wasted!Or Waisted?

A lot of time was spent in actually planning the trips and no one turning up on the actual day. Duh,frustrating as hell! What do people even do sitting in the house for the whole day? Thinking of the answer as I am writing this post, And today is almost the twentiest day of my vacation. And I still havent started eating right, exercising, no road trips, not one of the DIY yet. Atleast the goal of starting a new blog is achieved. Tada! Well, wait I still have 10 more days to spend. I will get it all done.(haha) 

I read a lot of books though, cleaned my book shelf which once looked like a dumpster now reasonably looks better. Had my bike serviced, did all the chores that mother left on the sticky note on the fridge everyday while going to the office,watched episodes sarabhai vs sarabhi take 2,played some batminton with the society kids, am learing to drive a car, spending time with close friends. lazed around, slept a lot, ate a lot, cooked some, got back to dancing. Yeah, thats pretty much it. Whatever happened to being productive?

But well, As I said I still have 10 more days to spend. I hope I tick off some of the things that I had planned in the beginning. .Till now, watever I had planned is turning out to be fiction. 😀

I am sure some of you would have been on trips with friends in this vacation and some of you might have spent the holidays indoors just lazying around. Whatever it was I hope you enjoyed it, were refreshed and with a clear head space. As we have another six moths of being busy all the time coming up.

What would my next 10 days be like?

Wasted or unwasted? Oh!we’ll see.