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I miss ‘The Stage’

Is there anything that you miss? What have you being doing all your life and for some reason are not able to do it now? What do you want to do but due to your busy schedule or prior commitments you are not able to do?  Is there anything that you miss? Something you want the most?  Someone, something, some place, some moment, some memory that you miss the most?  I have one such thing that I miss the most.  One such thing that I have been doing all my life and have suddenly come to a halt!

Dance.

It happened on this weekend, when I went to my guru’s dance concert. Being excited in the beginning,the feeling of guilt and sadness took over me when I left the concert hall. It was not because the concert was bad, it was excellent indeed. Something every Kathak dancer and a classical dancer should experience at least once in his/her lifetime.

Kathak is an Indian classical dance form originally from Uttar Pradesh(a state in northern India). I have been learning the same for the last 15 years of my life. It has become something that a single word cannot define. From being just a hobby in the beginning it became my passion. Dance was something I did whenever I felt happy, or sad. Wherever I felt I need to vent myself, I danced. I am learning  the Kathak dance from a renowned Kathak dancer herself and a choreographer in the movie industry as well. 

From being a hobby to passion. Now the journey led from once dancing all the time to not dancing anymore. A very sad journey on my part. For someone who has been dancing all her life, a year without dance is heart breaking and unimaginable. But it happened. I was busy in my academics, beginnings of shaping my career, confused about making the right choices. In the race of the life,all the serious things seemed to be winning and the happiness seemed to be loosing. 

At the end of the concert I had an urge to cry. I felt like I have lost a piece of my personality somewhere in the midst of everything and unable to find it. The medium of expression through dance was something I always mastered in. “Even if I made a mistake somewhere,it reflected on my face immediately “,says my dance teacher who has been training me for the last 10 years.

I went to greet my teacher and she immediately read my face. The tears in my eyes spoke before I could speak anything.

I not only miss the dancing. I miss presenting it on stage. The clothes, the make up,the lights, the smile and most importantly my ghungroos(small copper bells tied in a string). With every step attracting, everyone’s attention, was what I enjoyed the most and miss the most.

The concert was based on the idea “Sringar to Bhakti” meaning ” From Beauty to Devotion ”

It gave me a happy realization of the beauty that the Kathhak dance possess to the devotion you need to excel that dance form.

That devotion which was long lost somewhere, I found it again that day. I decided no matter what, as I am working hard to get an engineering degree, I would work harder to get a degree in dance as well.

I believe,

 Nothing should be left un-done in anyones life.

Everything you have been doing and will do in the future has a purpose. That purpose can be anything from money and success to passion and happiness.  It’s just important to carry on what you are doing and the purpose will be served.

I missed dancing badly.And today I make a promise to myself,whatever happens I won’t give up on dance.Never.

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Immensity

Have you ever looked at the sea or the sky and thought about how to describe it?Whenever I look at the sky and the sea there’s only one word that comes to my mind. Immense. Immensity!

We all have so many illusions about the immensity of the sky. The elements of the sky that make it look so beautiful. The sun, the moon, the stars,the clouds. All so close yet so far.

Looking at that immense sky and talking about illusions is a perfect combination. When ever we are afraid,nervous,in some trouble, saved from some trouble, we look at the sky spontaneously. We say the gods reside there. The gods with incomparable strength. When we miss someone, we look at the sky and try to find peace by watching its immense serenity. We find the lost loved ones watching us from up above. The day starts with the sun rise in the sky and ends with the sunset.The dark sky which is at some times scary with no light just darkness as if angry on all of us.And sometimes adorned with the bright moon and the twinkling stars. Of course this all is a natural process but still,it is worth acknowledging and admiring. Every child’s dream when he/she first sees the sky is that he/she wants to fly up there.Someone wants to become an astronaut or a Pilot or an air hostesses.And some like me just want to travel in an Air plane.Experience the never ending sky in its glory.How the roads in the sky be?

Is there a heaven or a hell really up there?Do the fairies sleep on the clouds?The sky turns from blue to pink to orange to black and back from black to orange to pink to blue.How’s that?Endless questions!

Our life similarly,can be immense.If we want it to be.We live only for a definite period of time,I agree.And immensity is infinite.But why can’t we bring elements that are immense as it owns.Love,positivism,hope,strength,confidence,curiosity,joy,surprise,affection,enthusiasm,inspirational,humorous,eagerness,overjoyed,sensitive and all the adjectives you could think of. It’s okay to be immensely angry, unbelieving,anxious,distrustful of someone sometimes.But just sometimes. The point is to always be giving.It will come back to you in some or the other form.

I have often heard people say,

The sky is the limit

We all are capable of something,we just need to search for it within us. Because

You are the sky,

Everything else is just the weather.

I have an obsession with the sky I think. Wherever I go  I love to capture the sky in my phone.It’s so immense,what’s wrong to have some of it in my pocket.;)

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A letter to HIM!

My dearest,

You may find it strange to be reading this.You would want to think.”Why letter?When I can directly talk to you.”.Well,it has two reasons to it.Firstly,it could have been overwhelming for me to say all this to you in front of you.Reason being that I am immensely in love with you.Sometimes the love makes it difficult to speak.And secondly,it is a part of the #everydayinsipiration.(You know I cannot lie to you).

Anyways,I know,this is a tough time for you. Tough time for both of us. But it will be okay as far as we both are together.We’ll get through it.

Failures are a part of life. The first failure is the hardest blow.And it hurts the most.Believe me when I say I understand.I failed.And miserably. Failures in academics is the tiniest of the failure we would ever face.Life has many more intense failures and beautiful successes to offer.And trust me when I say beautiful.If I wouldn’t have failed I wouldn’t have met you. And because of you,life has been a beautiful journey since. Likewise,life would offer you something that you never thought of.Something you never imagined to be getting.Something best for your abilities.Who knows,what life has planned.

Mean time,it’s all about trusting yourself.Having the same confidence in you that you first had.Living the same life with same serenity and passion you had.Don’t let one failure change you as a person.Failures do not define your life.It helps you shape it. It’s okay to be sad.To be heart broken.To be shattered.It’s human tendency to be upset on a non-success.Important is to accept it.Accept it and walk ahead. The sooner you accept it the less it will hurt.

Accept and let go: Holding on,thinking on it would only depress you.And me for the matter of fact.

Mend it:It’s your mistake.Correct it.

People will talk:People will talk behind your back.But the ones who know you will talk with you.Share your problems,guide you to success and if not guidance they won’t let you go the wrong way.

Talk:Talk to the people you love and trust.Venting is the key to a calm mind.

Destiny and Hope:You know it well,how destiny and hope are my most trusted sentiments.  Whatever is destined to be yours,will be yours no matter what. And till the time you don’t get it,don’t loose hope.

Work hard smartly:There’s nothing you can get easily.You need to work hard for it.

Use the time:You have ample of time to use.Use it for your passion.Use the time to be productive.

Walk ahead:Don’t turn back.The past is gone,live the present and make your future.

These are not the perfect guidelines to be successful.This is what I did when I failed.It sometimes worked,sometimes didn’t.

You promised to be strong and work hard.You promised to be the same person you are and not change.To be the pure soul that you are.

Life will throw the dice.And you have to move the token strategically to reach the goal. 

I will always be there with you no matter what. You are never alone and you never will be.I will always try and be the person you were to me. I will be that support system. I agree I am a brat.I throw a hell lot of tantrums in front of you. I am stubborn,I don’t listen to you,I have attention problems,I am a pain in the neck sometimes. But I promise I won’t trouble you.(Until and unless it’s too necessary and you are not listening to me).

We may not meet very often,it’s okay we would always be together.We may not go on dates,it’s okay!I won’t huff,I promise. We may not be able to go on holidays together.That’s also okay.The memories we made on the last one will be enough and worth the wait.We may not be able to do a lot of things we did earlier,but we have a life to catch up on them.

You are a gem of a person and the closest to my heart.I will always be the hand you want to hold while your hands feel empty.

Lots of Love,

ME!

 

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Quoting it..!

A person must be enabled to understand himself and pursue his dreams.

Says Sita,in the book Sita-The warrior of Mithila y author Amish Tripathi

Today’s world is competitive.There is fierce competition everywhere.School,colleges,professional places,personal spaces everywhere. Today’s world is full of competition.Competition to be the best,to be the greatest,to be the wealthiest,luckiest,famous and every adjective you could use to define winning.Or rather defeating.

But in this competitive world,where everyone is so busy and determined to be successful that humans sometimes forget what they actually want. For instance people choose their professions to earn more.To be successful,famous,wealthy. And they choose career options that they are either not capable of or are not in live with. If you do not love what you are doing,how can you be successful at it? Does success only mean money?What about the satisfaction,the happiness that your work should provide?Why not do something that makes you happy?

A person should analyse himself and choose what he wants to do. Dream about what he loves and make a career out of it. If someone loves dancing and singing.If that’s what he loves then why should he opt for career choices like engineering or medical or any other profession completely different from what he loves.Why not choose dancing as a career option and be happy.

Understanding your inner self,your needs and wants,you dreams in important not only in choosing your career but in every stage of life. Do something that makes you happy. Full fills your dreams the right way.

And,

You can

It’s not easy of course.But there’s nothing you cannot do.Once you understand yourself,what you want,set you goals and most importantly dream and have the strength to full fill your dreams it will be easy. Find yourself and you will find a way to live your dreams.

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Everyday Inspiration Day#3

A lot of times in our life there comes a time where we don’t know what to do.Where to go.What to expect and accept.We don’t know what life brings for us the next day or what life has planned for us for the current day. It’s all uncertain and sometimes scary

As a part the #everydayinsipiration I was supposed to write a blog on the image featured. I could just see a girl standing in the woods or about to enter the forest,but is scared.Or thoughtful.Or calculative.

Life is just like the woods.Productive but unpredictable.Beautiful but dangerous. Adventurous with lot of risks.Planned but never perfect. Dense but alone. We all have a life with positives and negatives in it. Each tree has hundreds of trees surrounding it. But it has to bear the fruit itself. It has to support the nest of the birds dwelling on it itself.It has to face the rains,the winds,and the sun.And still stand strong. So do we humans.

Walk around the woods fearless.Because for those who fear there are people to scare you.Once you overcome the fear,people overcome the urge to scare you.

Walk around the woods as the road is unending,the possibilities endless and keep the strength in us unnerving.

 

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Train Escapade #3

I wanna be home! 

It rained hell a lot of today. There wasn’t a single minute where it had stopped rainjng and the sky was clear. The roads were water logged. Even some railway stations were water logged and the train transport had stopped.  Luckily the train which I took was running, delayed,but still it was running and I was going to be home for sure.

I realized how much does this one word ‘home’ means to us. How relieved we are to even think that we are going to be home in some time. The smile that comes to our face when we reach home and see the pets coming to us wagging their tails.  The moment we step inside the house and mom asks whether you must be tired. Have you eaten anything?  When dad pats your back and asks you about your day. When your sibbling teases you on some random topic and that teasing turns into a pillow fight.

The meaning of home is different for everyone. My home is my safe place. My nest to which I come back after a long day in the open sky. Home is mom and dad. Home is my cozy bed. Home is my favorite window corner and my novels. Home is delicious meal cooked by mom. Home is cuddling with mom-dad after our tiering day at work and college. Home is a where I took my first steps of life and now to have a new life. Home is where nobody judges you. Nobody punishes you. Nobody tries to make fun or put you down.

Home is optimism. Home is the lightning of diyas in Diwali to make it look beautiful. Home is coloured hands marks on the walls during Holi. Home is flying kites on the terrace. Home is Valentine’s day celebration. Home is where Lord Ganesh arrives. Home is where the evil is killed and the victory of the sinless is celebrated. Home is where the Santa Claus is welcomed.

Home is where you want to be in your good and bad times. Home is where you want to be to be safe. Loved. Pampered. Comforted. Home is everything to me. And for everyone.

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Listing today..

Life is the greatest teacher of all times.It indirectly or directly teaches you something or the other everyday.Whether you intend to learn or not.You would still be taught.

Things that I have learned in my life so far are,

  • Learning never stops: No matter how big,experienced and polished you are;you will always have something or the other to study each day. Everything that happens,happens for a reason. And the reason is learning.You are always a student and there’s always scope for more knowledge.
  • Nobody is perfect: I am not perfect.And I say it with pride. If someone is perfect,there’s no charm left in life. Imperfections are beautiful.They make you who you are.To overcome imperfection is a journey. And everyone loves travelling.
  • Nothing is permanent:Everything that comes in your life has a purpose. Once the purpose is served,it will leave.It may be a person,a place,or a thing.The sole purpose is to teach and leave.
  • Time passes: Good or bad time will always pass. Everyone faces good and bad times equally. So don’t dwell on to the the good for long and don’t cry on to the bad for long. Eventually it will pass.Bringing something new for you to experience.
  • Don’t be afraid of the change:Change is basic rule of existence. If you don’t adapt to the changes around you,you will be left behind.The world progresses due to constant changes.
  • Be an open book: What you are on the inside,show it on the outside. Why to bitch behind someone you don’t like while you smile around in front?Be honest.It may leave you alone initially,eventually,people would realize your personality.
  • You are not alone:Whenever you feel depressed,lost,useless,remember you are not alone. Close your eyes,deep breathe and think about something you believe in.It may be a book,a person,some super natural power,anything. And feel that you are not alone. Someone is always there to protect you.
  • You are not alone:When you feel that you are not provided with the comforts that you deserve.Walk on to the empty street and look at the girl selling flowers on the traffic signal. Does she deserve that?Or does she deserve to have a better life?A life like you? You are not alone denied of something.There are plenty out there who don’t even have the liberty to demand anything.
  • Be grateful: Whatever you have you are supposed to have.Whatever you don’t have,you are supposed to get it later.Or not get it at all.Be grateful for whatever you have.
  • Adapt/Adjust: Not everything is supposed to be in your favor.Sometimes you have to adjust,some times turn the odds in your favor.
  • Do not sulk:People around you are as human as you are.They can also make mistakes.Do not sulk when there’s a mistake in relation with you. Forgive and forget. Later,the time may be gone.
  • Be positive: Negativity is harmful for you and people around you. Do not think or wish negative about someone.
  • Life happens:Whatever happens,happens for a reason.
  • Live,love,laugh:Live you life as per you want.You have got only one. Love.Fall in love.There may be some heartbreaks. Doesn’t mean there’s no love around.Look properly.Laugh.It will cheer you up and the people who love you.
  • Let go:Holding on to something or someone may hurt sometimes.